Do you feel like you are riding in the backseat of your life at times or are you at the steering wheel? Are there areas of your life where you are definitely in the driver’s seat and others areas where you feel like you are on a crowded bus holding onto the pole with everyone else? If so, what is it going to take for you to be in the drivers seat in all the areas of your life?
The other day I had a meeting with someone of significance. Someone who could say ‘yay or nay’ to my future. The pressure was on. I’ve been in these situations many times before and most times I have the tools to deal with the anxiety that arises. This time my nerves kept me from trusting and revealing all the Spiritual truths I was given. When I step out of Faith and Trust with Spirit, I waiver in the delivery of my words of wisdom.
After the meeting I was quite disappointed in myself for letting my nerves get in the way of showing up the way Spirit had prompted me to. I left with my tail between my legs and pouted throughout the rest of the day. I felt powerless and sad, and prayed asking God why I had doubted myself and what the lesson was for me.
The next morning, still feeling deflated; I dragged myself to a yoga class. I wanted to do something for my soul in the hopes that it would help me get out of this funk and heal my emotional state. As I moved through the poses, the realizations from all the work I had been doing with my soul poured over me. Frustration choked up in my throat as I swallowed back the tears. Sweating through another Vinyasa, I began to listen to Spirit speaking to me in my ear. I pushed away the words of wisdom I was receiving because I was too committed to wallowing in my woe. Working through the poses, Spirit continued to show me visuals helping me to believe and reminding me of all I have achieved. With every movement and breath, words of gratitude began filing me with light. Spirit was reminding me of my power and my strength. My breathing became easier, the poses continued to flow and as things became clearer I stepped away from the despair and into gratitude for all I have been given.
I left my yoga class feeling better but like anytime you allow yourself to spiral downward from a situation, still struggled to maintain the equilibrium of the new moment of strength and gratitude. Spirit prompted me drive to a new restaurant I never go to. On my drive to this new location I contemplated where I felt I was in the driver’s seat of my life and where I didn’t. I heard Spirit say, ‘Take the wheel in all areas of your life. No one has the power to tell you who or what you are. Your relationship is with us not with them.’ Spirit went on to show me the places where I needed to shake up my life and make some changes.
As most of you know, I just came back from a very magical vacation. When I reluctantly left that vacation to travel home, I promised myself I would not return home the same way I left. I made lists in my journal of all the things I want to do. I came home and started looking into those things but the daily stresses of life swept me up and carried me away, once again. Driving to the restaurant, I made a vow. A promise to God and myself, that I would do those new things because I do have the power over my life. I envisioned myself in a snow globe and God was shaking me up. I felt stronger and understood that no one is driving my ‘car’ and the only person I’m giving the wheel to, is God.
I walked into the restaurant and ran smack dab into the sign I was looking for. The sign had shown me that I was right, that important meeting was the meeting that decided my future. Spirit had shown me clear as day what I needed to see. I smiled at God and myself, ordered my food and began checking things off my list.
Many of you are artists, authors, actors, teachers, etc…you may be waiting for someone to give you that ‘big break’ in your life. Or maybe you are waiting to meet that companion you have dreamt about and known in your heart since the day you were born. Don’t wait for your life to come to you. Go out and live your life. Do things you have wanted do. You don’t need money to join a meet-up group and go on a hike, or to find a writing group to read your material to, or recite a monologue in front of your friends. Do what is in your heart and don’t wait for someone else to tell you what you can or can not do. You can have your dreams. Believe. Your dreams are yours for the wearing. Put them on, get in your car and take the wheel to your destiny.
